HeArtfirmation|8.13.14

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Speaking those things… ❤

 

xoxo & Freedom | Alysia

 

 

Wholistic Vision Board|06.29.14

WHOLISTICLIVITY

 

I finally finished my Wholistic Vision Board. I can’t wait to create a few more!! I couldn’t fit everything on this one of course! lol  ❤ ❤

 

Vision boards are a great way to meditate on what’s true. Images translate what 1000 words can’t. Though I chose to use positive affirmations, precepts, and happy stuff I wanted to include more images than words. I am an advocate of these!!

 

xoxo | Alysia

Submerged in Harmony| The Light. 6.18.14. AD

 

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Below is a diary entry from 2012. I decided to share because the manifestation of the dream Yahweh gave me is coming to pass in this period of my souls journey. Back then was the beginning of my inner-healing journey. Since 2012 I can’t tell you how many tears, pain, doubt, struggle, fear, betrayal, laughter, smiles, kisses, hugs, encouragement & pure bliss has come to me…and this continues. I need all of these experiences, so I embrace them fully. I am a healing-healer. When I had this dream I had no clue this would actualize in my life. All I knew is how real what I saw and felt was. So much has happened that has tempted me to doubt what I was shown.  Today I’m fully submerged, and enjoying this fear-less wonder as I surrender. Water has always had a way of healing me. I’ve been known to take extremely long baths, and I love to swim. lol Water has always had a way of calming me, and oddly I feel very safe in it. I hope that each of you can get a glimpse of what it means to be truly free, fully overtaken by your pursuit of wholeness. It is your birthright. It takes confidence in The Most High and Self to submerge into the harmonious and healthy waters. Harmony means “off-notes” will be involved. It’s ok… “play with your own squishy.” (in the words of Andre 3000) lol And I say allow those things that make no sense become your new normal.  Above all I hope you will be inspired and enlightened.

 

xoxo & Wholeness| Alysia

Submerged

January 23, 2012 at 11:21pm

Earlier this evening I had a dream. I dreamed I was deep in the ocean under the water looking up and I saw the light of the sun gleaming through the crystal blue. For once in my life I didn’t care who was around me. Who was enjoying. Who was pleased, or who saw that light but me. I didn’t care who felt that freedom from the water making me feel weightless but me. I stared at that beam from the sun from under that deep water for about 3 min. I was amazed at how free I was; as it seemed the water enjoyed me. It embraced me. It helped me see clear. I was submerged in something that I enjoy most. Water. I love the ocean. I love to swim. I didn’t rush it and it didn’t rush me. The way the sun shined almost purposefully right above me was surreal. I wasn’t afraid either. I was deep in and had no fear.

 

I made a very challenging decision earlier today. Before I had this dream. I didn’t care if anyone approved, I wasn’t looking for validation for what I felt was right for me for one of the few times in my life. It’s a process that I’m in. This change is life-altering for me. When I woke up from the dream I felt so refreshed and carefree and relaxed, but yet energetic and rejuvenated at the same time.

 

 

I interpret my dream to mean that when I submerge myself into healing relentlessly that’s the place where I find my serenity. Water purges. When I purge my space spiritually, physically and mentally and immerse ME in the new waters, I thrive, I float, I dance. It’s deep and I may look around and see no one, but I am so occupied with this new found freedom, and peace and beauty that it hasn’t hit me nor have I stopped to even looked around. Reality is it’s not necessary to. My path is one that only I can travel. I never ran out of breath under the ocean. I didn’t panic. The wide ocean space was not a concern (and I normally have a fear of wide open spaces). When I see that the waters are so deep that I am light, and carefree and I see light above me; which represents my heavenly father, I know I’m in the right place.

 

 

FEEL. |Connecting with My Inner Ambience

FEEL.

I thought I’d design with much passion, color, and PoP since the winter always gifts me with feelings of power and inspiration unlike any other time of the year, and I wish that these were the only things the winter brings for me since I am a winter soul, but this time of the year also brings out some deep unpleasantness, some unease, some sadness, due to shedding old spiritual skin. It makes perfect sense, given that the wisdom from our ancestors teach that winter is time of inner reflection, connecting with our truest state of being,  and letting go of what no longer serves us.

In my view  we don’t live in the most emotionally healthy, or supportive society here in the western world, and so because of this revelation first from The Most High, and confirmation from resources that I am blessed to have come across I’ve found this newfound journey to getting in touch with my true feeling very exhausting, and I now see how much I have detached myself from them in winters past because subconsciously I just didn’t feel like doing the work of recognizing, truly feeling, and accepting them. Closing doors, and changing light bulbs spiritually is WORK. It is easier to act like a robot, and just walk around pretending to be unaffected by things (both pleasant and unpleasant).  I now know it’s ok to feel what I feel, to be intuitive, and to accept my imperfect, complex self COMPLETELY. It is ok to detach from what doesn’t serve me, and thus doesn’t assist me in serving. Saying no to some things, which frees me to say yes to what’s best. This means shifting, shifting, and more shifting. Life won’t be easy, and it won’t be familiar. I’ve never done this before so I am going to make mistakes, and I’m going to lose, and I’m going to gain.  I want to remain true to who I am and move forward creating a better world for my spirit to be free as God intended.  After all nothing is hidden, we just think we can hide. Society has taught us to try and hide, because it’s “easier” for us to assimilate that way and not “bother” one another, and keep to “business” at hand. The only business I have is being in tune with myself and my Creator.

I know I’ve done myself a great disservice by not trusting my own inner nudges when things didn’t feel right for me, and  I have often waited for some additional reason to be happy than just being happy and doing what brings me pure bliss & joy.  In the name of “waiting on God to show me” I’ve waited in vain. I no longer hold myself hostage in a shame and fear based belief system thinking I’m doing God a favor, by giving into my own fears and insecurities. I still deal with abandonment issues, and I know this is the root of this tree. It has taken 31 years to grow so I have lots of work to do but I am committed to myself. Even if I am wrong, I can ask for forgiveness. God is the same today, yesterday and forever. He never intended for me to ignore and neglect myself. If nothing else I’m clear that it is for my mental, physical and spiritual health to FEEL. This is what my God-given senses were created to do. I have a right to own what I feel. No more self guilt trips for feeling, whether that’s bliss or the depression. God lights my path, and when I fall He is always there to pick me back up not to sit me in a far-off place and judge me but to hold me, dust me off, reveal to me another lesson to share, and reassure me of the depths of divine love. I am connecting with my inner ambience because I am FREE to be ME. 💝

xoxo| Wishing you Self-Acceptance & Patience

 Alysia.

Becoming Well. | …So that my works will praise me.

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For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of power and of love and of calm and well-balanced mind and discipline and self-control. –2 Timothy 1:7 (AMP)

How can I love somebody else when I can’t love myself enough to know when it’s time, time to let go. –Mary J. Blige

Being a child doesn’t last long, but having a playful imagination can last a lifetime. If we allow it. – You, Me + Charlie

Dive into the deep places of God. –Sandra Martin

Learning is not always by the book. – Start-Thinking.com

I know I’m not the only one who remembers being VERY active as a child. I mean active in every sense of what active means. lol Well, the beauty is in this healing phase my child-like spirit is being re-kindled. I remember believing in myself from such a loving place.  I think this because when I was a child I truly believed and truly felt the goodness of God. I trusted it, it surrounded me, and I hardly remember not feeling like that. Nothing yet had happened that tested my faith to make me feel any differently. Of course not many years passed before that reality would begin to change. I’ve learned; consistent hurt, disappointment, neglect, abandonment, being ignored, shunned, laughed at,  (both real, and perceived: as children we don’t always know the difference) fatigue your spirit. You get hurt so much, you hurt yourself so much that just being alive feels like an impossible chore. Self-loathing is invited  (unawares to you of course) and brings all the side-kicks: (procrastination, laziness, repeated self-abuse, living in fear, depression, bitterness, unforgiveness, lack of self control, lack of boundaries, confusion, and double-mindedness, and surrender of identity.) I don’t remember when I stopped living from my spirit, and trusting in God’s goodness, but I do remember as soon as I decided to I opened the door for so many unclean spirits. It’s like I totally forgot who I was so everything in the natural that I could touch, see and feel, simply aligned with the spiritual. When I was young, and especially in my teens I did so many things to lift my spirits, without questioning myself, or second- guessing what I really felt. I lived by my spirit. EVERYDAY.  Being grounded in yourself, and true to who you are gives you energy that you can’t get from food, sex, friends, family, anyone. I have had this lesson come to me over and over, until one day recently I “got it”.  Thought I’d  share that I’ve dropped some heavy bags, and I look to drop more. I need my arms to be free to receive and give in abundance. To practice and perfect my crafts and live. I meant truly. To feel alive, well, and to BE well. I have to manifest my end of the spectrum. My workings. So that my works will one day praise me.

SN: (A broken-spirit is sometimes at the root of laziness. First learn to be kind to yourself and heal. Don’t judge yourself, BUT be realistic about what you can handle. Loving yourself, and not comparing yourself makes tasks a lot easier. )

…still healing, learning, and overcoming.

xoxo,

Alysia

Discussion: “What Is Peace”| 5.23.13.☕

innerHello love bugs, I’ve missed you so much!! The blog is still on Spring Break, but anyone who knows me knows breaks aren’t my strong point. *shrugs* Since there won’t be regular posting on the blog until June 21st, I thought it would be a perfect time to do some Blog Talk Radio segments. I’m challenging myself to be more open about my journey, and this is a great place to start.

 

I invite you to join me on 5.23.13. @ 6:30 PM ET, for my second segment of the year on Blog Talk Radio. To listen in dial (646) 929-0060. This discussion is entitled “What Is Peace?” As a brown girl on my journey of overcoming codependency, low self-esteem and depression I’ve gotten to place where I’ve discovered my inner peace. I would like to share with you what that is for me. Some people don’t know where to begin, so this segment will offer tips, encouragement, and the both the ups and downs one may experience while breaking free from codependency, and finding peace from my perspective.

I hope you choose to join me!

Don’t forget in the midst of the hiatus we can still connect on twitter!

xoxo

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interior design. a life of transformation.☎☕

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#NP Kersha Bailey ~ “Try Again”

Peaceful Rising!

I hope you like my interior design set! I was just thinking red and black, so I went with it. Anyone who knows me personally knows how much I love Angela Simmons, for so many reasons. I love the way her apartment looked in NYC well I guess LA now. I know she relocated. I saw some pics of her apartment and she had some pops of red and some sleek black going on and it was still soft because of the elements used. So I guess subconsciously my love for her spot inspired this set someway. I’ve never been huge on red, but I guess I love it now. This set just had to have some element of pink in there or it just wouldn’t be me. This is my space. I decorated it with no one else but me in mind. I’m married, so some of these items probably wouldn’t be welcomed, especially my pillows. lol MEN. SMH lol

I’m always reflecting. I am an “inner vision” type of person so-to-speak. I was thinking about what I cherish and value around me, what I like to see manifested, not in a couch or a piece of art but maybe like what color I want my spirit to show or what it would take to revamp my inner world to be what I would consider truly beautiful, honorable and well ME. I love to design both interior and fashion and I think where I am mentally and emotionally always reflects in what I create. Maybe this is why I decided to do an interior design set. 🙂 I have been on this journey of transformation and renovation, and just recently I made some decisions that got me off track. This, as well as not realizing how much hard work goes into maintaining my changes was a blow to my little ego and spirit. Just like with a home space, you can buy all new fixtures, furniture, wall-paintings and stuff you want. Reality is it takes work to rid your space of the old and bring in the new, AND to properly maintain the new. I’m learning.

Life is just one huge continuous interior design project. The work is learning to maintain the new changes. I realize it’s just a matter of how bad I truly want change. The age of 29 going into 30 showed me that all of my changes wouldn’t be applauded or even acknowledged by others, so in reality outside of GOD I’m an audience of one. Stepping out of people-pleasing and just trying to be to say I’m a good person for others into yeah sometimes I get angry, yes sometimes I will make mistakes, I hurt, sometimes I want to be alone, yes I am happy at times even if everyone else is frowning, yes I do love what I love, agree with what I will and disagree at times and I will be ok with me. My journey is teaching me what it really means to love myself and appreciate my uniqueness. It’s also shown me the level of energy, inspiration, steadfastness and dedication I have to cultivate on this journey to my best self. Lastly, this journey has also shown me the importance of having a solid relationship with YAHWEH. My creator my Lord, King, my everything. 🙂  Well, I’m learning something new each day. I hope you all stick around for more snapshots of the journey.

I want to urge you to be strong in yourself and embrace life’s transitions. You won’t be the same person you were last year or two years ago if you don’t choose to be. It’s ok to strive for a different, healthier and honorable you. Sometimes we try to hold on in attempts to correct a wrong. Forgive yourself deeply and the next time the same opportunity comes you have another chance. If it doesn’t at least you learned something valuable to pass on. Change can be scary because we don’t always know the outcome. Most often we fear others reactions or lack-thereof. If it’s YOU who this change is really for ask GOD to help you and begin your journey!

Light & Joy

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PS! A VERY SPECIAL HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SISTER DEBRA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU ENDLESSLY!!!!!!❤❤❤❤❤