HeArtfirmation|8.13.14

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Speaking those things… ❤

 

xoxo & Freedom | Alysia

 

 

HeArtSync| 7.16.14.

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In regards to social media versus real time love that nothing can capture but the heart, and occasionally a good Cannon!📷 lol  Peace is in creating the balance.💗 What matters most to me is what’s being experienced. This #heartsync is much-needed! 💗🌼☀

xoxo| Happy July!
Alysia

Submerged in Harmony| The Light. 6.18.14. AD

 

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Below is a diary entry from 2012. I decided to share because the manifestation of the dream Yahweh gave me is coming to pass in this period of my souls journey. Back then was the beginning of my inner-healing journey. Since 2012 I can’t tell you how many tears, pain, doubt, struggle, fear, betrayal, laughter, smiles, kisses, hugs, encouragement & pure bliss has come to me…and this continues. I need all of these experiences, so I embrace them fully. I am a healing-healer. When I had this dream I had no clue this would actualize in my life. All I knew is how real what I saw and felt was. So much has happened that has tempted me to doubt what I was shown.  Today I’m fully submerged, and enjoying this fear-less wonder as I surrender. Water has always had a way of healing me. I’ve been known to take extremely long baths, and I love to swim. lol Water has always had a way of calming me, and oddly I feel very safe in it. I hope that each of you can get a glimpse of what it means to be truly free, fully overtaken by your pursuit of wholeness. It is your birthright. It takes confidence in The Most High and Self to submerge into the harmonious and healthy waters. Harmony means “off-notes” will be involved. It’s ok… “play with your own squishy.” (in the words of Andre 3000) lol And I say allow those things that make no sense become your new normal.  Above all I hope you will be inspired and enlightened.

 

xoxo & Wholeness| Alysia

Submerged

January 23, 2012 at 11:21pm

Earlier this evening I had a dream. I dreamed I was deep in the ocean under the water looking up and I saw the light of the sun gleaming through the crystal blue. For once in my life I didn’t care who was around me. Who was enjoying. Who was pleased, or who saw that light but me. I didn’t care who felt that freedom from the water making me feel weightless but me. I stared at that beam from the sun from under that deep water for about 3 min. I was amazed at how free I was; as it seemed the water enjoyed me. It embraced me. It helped me see clear. I was submerged in something that I enjoy most. Water. I love the ocean. I love to swim. I didn’t rush it and it didn’t rush me. The way the sun shined almost purposefully right above me was surreal. I wasn’t afraid either. I was deep in and had no fear.

 

I made a very challenging decision earlier today. Before I had this dream. I didn’t care if anyone approved, I wasn’t looking for validation for what I felt was right for me for one of the few times in my life. It’s a process that I’m in. This change is life-altering for me. When I woke up from the dream I felt so refreshed and carefree and relaxed, but yet energetic and rejuvenated at the same time.

 

 

I interpret my dream to mean that when I submerge myself into healing relentlessly that’s the place where I find my serenity. Water purges. When I purge my space spiritually, physically and mentally and immerse ME in the new waters, I thrive, I float, I dance. It’s deep and I may look around and see no one, but I am so occupied with this new found freedom, and peace and beauty that it hasn’t hit me nor have I stopped to even looked around. Reality is it’s not necessary to. My path is one that only I can travel. I never ran out of breath under the ocean. I didn’t panic. The wide ocean space was not a concern (and I normally have a fear of wide open spaces). When I see that the waters are so deep that I am light, and carefree and I see light above me; which represents my heavenly father, I know I’m in the right place.

 

 

Seeking.

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They say whatever we seek is seeking us. I’m seeking and finding possibility. I’m finding simplicity, through the posture of receptiveness. I’m finding space and making room for me. I am finding rest in Yahweh.

What are you finding?

xoxo & Light 💗Alysia

Original mixed media artwork by moi 🙂

FEEL. |Connecting with My Inner Ambience

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I thought I’d design with much passion, color, and PoP since the winter always gifts me with feelings of power and inspiration unlike any other time of the year, and I wish that these were the only things the winter brings for me since I am a winter soul, but this time of the year also brings out some deep unpleasantness, some unease, some sadness, due to shedding old spiritual skin. It makes perfect sense, given that the wisdom from our ancestors teach that winter is time of inner reflection, connecting with our truest state of being,  and letting go of what no longer serves us.

In my view  we don’t live in the most emotionally healthy, or supportive society here in the western world, and so because of this revelation first from The Most High, and confirmation from resources that I am blessed to have come across I’ve found this newfound journey to getting in touch with my true feeling very exhausting, and I now see how much I have detached myself from them in winters past because subconsciously I just didn’t feel like doing the work of recognizing, truly feeling, and accepting them. Closing doors, and changing light bulbs spiritually is WORK. It is easier to act like a robot, and just walk around pretending to be unaffected by things (both pleasant and unpleasant).  I now know it’s ok to feel what I feel, to be intuitive, and to accept my imperfect, complex self COMPLETELY. It is ok to detach from what doesn’t serve me, and thus doesn’t assist me in serving. Saying no to some things, which frees me to say yes to what’s best. This means shifting, shifting, and more shifting. Life won’t be easy, and it won’t be familiar. I’ve never done this before so I am going to make mistakes, and I’m going to lose, and I’m going to gain.  I want to remain true to who I am and move forward creating a better world for my spirit to be free as God intended.  After all nothing is hidden, we just think we can hide. Society has taught us to try and hide, because it’s “easier” for us to assimilate that way and not “bother” one another, and keep to “business” at hand. The only business I have is being in tune with myself and my Creator.

I know I’ve done myself a great disservice by not trusting my own inner nudges when things didn’t feel right for me, and  I have often waited for some additional reason to be happy than just being happy and doing what brings me pure bliss & joy.  In the name of “waiting on God to show me” I’ve waited in vain. I no longer hold myself hostage in a shame and fear based belief system thinking I’m doing God a favor, by giving into my own fears and insecurities. I still deal with abandonment issues, and I know this is the root of this tree. It has taken 31 years to grow so I have lots of work to do but I am committed to myself. Even if I am wrong, I can ask for forgiveness. God is the same today, yesterday and forever. He never intended for me to ignore and neglect myself. If nothing else I’m clear that it is for my mental, physical and spiritual health to FEEL. This is what my God-given senses were created to do. I have a right to own what I feel. No more self guilt trips for feeling, whether that’s bliss or the depression. God lights my path, and when I fall He is always there to pick me back up not to sit me in a far-off place and judge me but to hold me, dust me off, reveal to me another lesson to share, and reassure me of the depths of divine love. I am connecting with my inner ambience because I am FREE to be ME. 💝

xoxo| Wishing you Self-Acceptance & Patience

 Alysia.

Special Delivery ♡| HeartSync Challenge #1

For some reason God keeps revealing, and has to keep reminding me in one way or another that I’m a carrier of information, but I need to practice consistently delivering that information to the correct recipient: GOD. For my own health and wellness. I am a human sponge. And just like any sponge I have a capacity- I’m still a human.. just a human and a sponge 🙂  I’m sometimes negligent of prayer..yup.

Prayer and meditation both have plenty spiritual, and physical benefits. In addition, both alleviate my heart and mind from the heaviness of bearing False burdens. False burden bearing doesn’t necessarily mean bearing a burden that isn’t real…the burden is real, but isn’t OURS to keep. We have to give it to God.

Sooo, for the next 5 days -during my HeartSync I’ll be committing myself to more prayer. No mapping, no pre-planing, no guidelines, or rules to follow. Just simply delivering what I pick up. 🙂 a.k.a. prayer & or interceding.  I hope you care to join in. If so, e-mail me at herheartmatters@gmail.com and let’s talk about our experiences.

SN 🙂

Favorite Synonym for Intercessor:

Merchant (I find this one VERY interesting 🙂

Easy Yokes & Light Burdens, xoxo |Alysia

This Little Light of Mine|Cadence.

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Experiencing this gift from God brings me to tears. My nephew is one-years old and he is so amazing. He’s very independent, and he loves crackers. lol He likes doing things with his hands, he loves playing the drums, and he loves outdoors. It seems as though when my sister gave birth something supernatural happened inside me. I felt overwhelmingly charged with the highest sense of duty, love, and  a the strongest urge to fulfill my purpose than ever before. Cadence’s birth gave me a chance to experience something I never have before. I got to feel the highest, and most positive energy possible on this earthly plane, and that is new life. Though I wasn’t present at his birth, somehow I still felt all the divinity and vibrancy that comes with the birth of  a soul. Words cannot explain, and I’m tearing up as I type this. Life is sacred.

Sharing a piece of my heart and soul…. He is my only nephew. I love him with everything that I am.

Auntie loves you Chunky!!!

Fulfilled.

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 “The woman is happy who finds happiness in solitude as well as companionship. “

I love the freedom that communion brings. Enmeshment is restrictive, it tangles, confuses, traps and restricts whereas communion allows for intimacy, time, choice, space, and individuality, which all breed PEACE & HARMONY.

Overcoming enmeshment isn’t easy.  I fight every day to maintain the level of freedom I’ve gained in this part of my life, and create avenues for more freedom. I just want to share some things I’ve implemented. Above all, without being honest with me, I couldn’t have gotten to this place.

 1.  I no longer have a best friend(s), I have sisters and brothers.  Overcoming co-dependency.. The whole hierarchy system triggers a seemingly automatic “above the law” or “exception to the rules” way of relating in me, which has had very little to do with the person, and everything to do with my faulty belief system about accountability, mutuality, and boundaries. Taking the time to discover myself has helped me to be realistic about who’s compatible with today’s Alysia, and who isn’t.  Only I can decide that. I love all of my sisters and brothers equally, and that’s enough for me.  No bests and worsts! lol there’s so much freedom in that. I am working on being the best for myself for the first time in my life. We are attracted to what we BELIEVE is good, healthy and normal, and deserving on both conscious and sub-conscious levels. My new healthy and normal is Respect, Fun, Honesty and Accountability= true LOVE to me.

2. B O U N D A R I E S:  I remember days spending countless hours talking, texting, or e-mailing with others (this was before I realized  the importance prioritizing my personal space) Plus, I was kinda afraid of space then, because it meant I’d have to deal with me. It is my life purpose to encourage, and to give words of wisdom, and knowledge, BUT it’s not for the TAKING. God gave me the gift to use it wisely, and how I see fit. Guilt for not “helping” is not a move of God. False burden-bearing is not healthy. I would be unbelievably drained afterwards, but in the name of “help” I would forget about my first duty, which is to honor the temple God gave me, which includes taking care of ME, filling my spirit, guarding my heart, resting my mind, and choosing wisely what I put my mouth on. Nowadays I DON’T give unsolicited advice, and I selectively give advice that I’m asked for, and peace HATH FLOODED MY soul! lol Keeping my mouth shut really brings so much peace. Just because I have an answer doesn’t mean I should give it. Always use wisdom or people will drain you. You will drain yourself if you don’t protect yourself.

3. GOD FIRST: I put this at the bottom because it is the foundation on which all the above stands. Yahweh first out of love, and joy and fullness in all that YAH is and ever will be. Not because I fear He will leave me or because I have to work for love and approval. Castrated from purpose = Castrated from life. My purpose is to manifest God. Literally. LIVE. MOVE. And BE. IN HIM! = Fulfillment